Hey everyone, its been a while since a blog post, so I apologise. Some of you who follow me on Instagram would have known already by my insta videos ( which I am new at, and still trying to get the hang off!) that I am pregnant! I have been rather quiet with this one, more or less just really enjoying this pregnancy. Ive enjoyed having a little secret to myself for a while. But now I’m half way and about time I shared an update with you all!
The first 3 months have been fairly easy, not much nausea just a lot of tiredness. I had an early gestational diabetes test, which I have not heard back from, so I’m assuming all good…..and considering how I felt with Elijah and how I feel this time, couldn’t be more different! This pregnancy is a lot more like when I was pregnant the first time with Timmy, it was easy and comfortable and I really enjoyed the experience. Elijah, well that was a whole other ball game. I hated every minute being pregnant, I hate saying that. But it was true. It was very hard to control anything to do with my body, what I ate and how I felt before or after i ate, my tiredness level was horrendous! however the minute I gave birth I felt I could have run a marathon, I literally felt amazing again. Goes to show what gestational diabetes can do to you!
I thought we would stop after baby number 2, but I realised the moment I gave birth to him that would be that last time. I was sad at the thought of never getting to go through pregnancy again, feel baby kicks and getting to go through labour again. Yes, labour sucks, but it is the most rewarding experience you will ever have in your life, well it was for me anyway! You go through hours of pain to get the most amazing gift at the end of it! There is literally no high like it when you see and hold your baby in your arms, its pure magic.
well I have really been enjoying my pregnancy a lot this time around. Really absorbing it all. I’m getting a lot bigger now and feeling baby move a fair bit more, however baby is a lot more quiet in the moving department then the other two were. I have had my scan to tell me the sex of my baby. If you want to know, send me a msg, ill tell you 🙂 I wont write it on here as other people may not want to know.
With every pregnancy there are new fears I face every time. With Timmy it was all new, I feared the unknown. And after the birth everything was different, it was overwhelming, the tiredness was a whole new level I never knew. but after 4 months it all settled down, we found our rhythm and it was good. With Elijah I was worried how Timmy would handle the new addititon, but on a whole he was good. He just decided to go through his threenanger stage after Elijah was born, which kinda sucked and made my life very stressful. He seems to be getting a bit better now. But after Elijah I hit Post Natal Depression, my stress was off the grid it was awful….speaking to doctors and councillors all they suggested was drugs, especially after the doctor told me I would need drugs to come of the original drugs they would give me….um, no thanks. I decided right there and then I had to sort my shit out, whether it was timing or just me, somehow I managed to get my shit together. It was not easy, but I am lucky I got through it, it took a good 5 months. So yes I am nervous that PND will begin again after baby number 3, but I am currently taking steps to try and get my head straight, try to be aware of when I’m feeling low, and try to take a different approach after baby is born. only time will tell if this helps or not. If not there is a course on PND I can do through the Parental Stress Centre, who I did a course through them after my last baby called “find the calm amongst the chaos” and I can not tell you how much that helped me. You can read about my story on that here The Parental Stress Centre
Its now 20 weeks with baby number 3, and I had my first hormonal breakdown a few days ago. My fears going forward are obviously PND, and Elijah. He is very clingy and needs my attention a lot. He screams and cry’s constantly when I am around, for other people he seems fine, but when it is me, its not good enough he needs to be with me or on me or have my attention a lot of the time! I am hoping after he starts talking he will calm down on the screaming and crying. however, I am looking forward to having our last addition join the family. Timmy is very excited for the new addition, he has helped choose the name also. I am not worried about him, he is such a smart little cookie and yes he has days he is a right pain in the arse however, he is such a beautiful little boy, very intelligent and makes a really good big brother. He loves to help me out when he is in the mood. His latest helping is vacuuming the floor. I am not complaining.
So after my feeling a bit low the other day and loosing my temper one too many times at the boys, I decided I needed to try and get on top of this once again before it gets out of control. I went onto the Parental Stress Centre website and found a course which now suits me. I will blog about it later once I am finished it. It is called The Happy Mum Course. I Just started 3 days ago, it goes for 10 weeks. I will blog all about it. I honestly love this centre, it suits me perfectly, and from my experience speaking with a counsellor this course beats that hands down!
I am lucky this time around, we have everything we need for the last addition. All the furniture, a lot of gender neutral clothing – but either way this baby is getting all the hand me downs! The only thing extra we need is to get a pram that fits both Elijah and the new baby. Baby Bunting, here we come! I loved shopping there for all the stuff we needed for Elijah, they were so helpful and the prices were so good! Were hoping that the car seat capsule fits into the car so we will not need to buy a new one of those either! But other then that we are pretty much set ready to go! I’m looking forward to this next stage, and knowing this is absolutely our last bubba. I am happy with this, and accept it. I am just really enjoying every single second of this pregnancy and want to take it all in. I did not really with Elijah, I wasn’t feeling right and then after with the PND was just horrible. The newborn stage went by in the blink of an eye. I barely recognise Elijah as a newborn, its a blurry first 5 months with him which makes me sad. So this time I really want to just try to take everything in, and I’m hoping by working with the Parental Stress Centre through their course this will help keep me on track.
Ok, so that is all so far from me! So far so good on my pregnancy. Be sure to check out my Insta & Facebook page for picture updates along the way!