The Parental Stress Centre

So those of you that follow me on my Social media accounts such as my Facebook Page will know that 2 weeks ago I had a Mummy Meltdown. Let me give you the back story so you will understand how I  got to that point.

I gave birth to Elijah back in March and since bringing him home I have been feeling very anxious, stressed, overwhelmed and feeling I am not coping on a day to day basis. Elijah is now 3 1/2 months old. Before I had Elijah I was a lot more in control, and I felt like I could handle Timmy most of the time. There were rare occasions where I would have a bad day, but these were far and few between! I guess the timing of Timmy turning 3 just after giving birth to Elijah hasn’t helped. He has turned into a little Threenanger. This is a serious thing, forget terrible two’s they were a breeze, but once they hit 3, WOW! So trying to cope with his outbursts and tantrums while managing a new born baby has not been easy to say the least. Every day I suffer from major mummy guilt over trying to give Timmy the attention he needs and trying to breast feed Elijah and change a thousand nappies a day. I forgot how much stuff comes out of such a little human being! Every day for the past 3 1/2 months I have been feeling guilt ridden, felt like I am not coping, feel like I should be able to do all the washing, keep a clean house, give enough attention to both children, cook dinner, and make them healthy and something every one would like. I would be lucky if I got through a load or two of washing, and that doesn’t include putting it away! No one else was putting this pressure on me, but me! I feel like every day I should be an octopus with 8 arms. My expectations are way too high, on myself and on Timmy. He is 3. Yes, he is naughty, cheeky and testing. I feel I should be able to handle this, and honestly I have not been able to. Every night when I put him to bed, I promise tomorrow will be better and I will be a better mum who doesn’t loose her temper and who is more patient and understanding, but then the next day is just as it was the day before. The stress had just got too much and I am fearful it is turning into depression, if it has not already. I feel like I have no control and it does not help when well meaning family tell me i’m not doing things right, or I should be doing more of this or that. I don’t think social media has helped much either, with people only posting the most amazing pictures and stories of clean houses, kids playing incredibly well, outings where kids behave, home cooked meals from scratch. That is why for me, posting as honestly as I can about my struggles and my reality is important. Whether it be on my blog, instagram, fb or twitter. You will always see pictures of a messy house, my imperfect arts and crafts or cooking attempts and basically the reality which is life. Of course there are days which do go wonderful, and I go to bed feeling like the best mum in the world, however of late these are less and less. which seems to be my problem

Enter the Parental Stress Centre. In the midst of my mummy meltdown, telling my 3 year old son I couldn’t take anymore, I didn’t want to be a mummy anymore and I was going to go to work instead, an ad popped up on my facebook feed. The weirdest thing is, I never looked them up, I was not seeking outside help, it just randomly popped up on my face book computer screen at what could only be described as the exact moment I needed it to. I am the biggest skeptic out there, and I never click on these facebook ADS, but curiosity got me and I was at my wits ends so I clicked on the AD, what did I have to loose?. It was the best decision I made! Reading about there programs, how they can help, what they offer….I thought perhaps this might just be what I need. So I registered! I signed up for their 28 day program, find my calm challenge. We are currently on day 11, and I can honestly say this is EXACTLY what I needed! I love the live Q&A once a week with Jackie Hall. She explains everything so well, clearly and everything makes sense and i’m always left wondering why I did not know this before, or how did I not see this or understand this earlier?

Every day they send you an email in the morning, which comes with an audio version also. I prefer to listen to the Audio version then reading, I find I absorb what is being said better and each day it will cover a new topic such as ‘Understanding your Toddler’. I love waking up to these, especially after a bad night with Elijah being up and attached all night and i wake up feeling tired and irritated before the day has even began. Then at the end of the lesson they give you home work, these are tasks they ask you to do, which you do not send in, there just extra to help in your understanding and to help put the lesson into practice. You can choose to do them or not, they are up to you. I do them when I can. The past few days I have not had a chance. Things have been a little hectic, so ill open the email and listen to the audio version if I’m busy and don’t have time to sit and read, ill put the audio on while washing up or cooking or breast feeding and listen to it that way! Honestly, everything they say makes so much sense, and the hardest part is getting myself to rethink and rearrange my old habits and stop myself conflicting against the reality of what is happening as apposed to my expectations of what should happen. It is so easy to get myself stressed and worked up. But then I just need to stop, think about what I have been told, how to handle it and try the best I can in the current situation. This is easier said then done, some days I can handle, others get the better of me, and I just give up! I am working on it.

They have a closed face book group which I LOVE because every single other person on there you can relate to! They are all strangers, and you can post your problems and they all post with advice or there personal story. It is such a relief and just feels really nice knowing your not the only one who struggles as a parent. Obviously you already know you are not the only person which struggles as a parent, however some days can feel isolating, even if you have close friends, family and your partner/husband/wife ect around you, you can still manage to feel very alone with your problems.

I have had friends and family message me offering me advice and reassuring me I am doing a great job and I am not alone in how I am feeling, they assure me “we have all been there”. I truly appreciate these messages of support. Carl has been great, booking me a night away so I could take some time off. Much needed. I think Carl puts up with a lot, most night he comes home after working all day to a messy house, no dinner cooked and Timmy still awake as he refuses to go to bed for me! But when he walks through those doors, it is like a wave of relief, I have help, I have a team member who can step in so I can breathe. I feel happy, relieved and guilty all at the same time. I think I have let the stress and pressure every day get to me for too long and it is now weighing too heavy so this is why I decided to sign up to this program. Honestly, if there are any parents out there struggling and you feel you need help, you must look them up! They offer other programs besides the one I am doing. Its only day 11, and I have a long way to go, the program I am on is 28 days, but what I have learnt so far has been eye opening. I am really happy I chose to click on that AD when I did. I have a lot of self work to do, but I am looking forward to it and hopefully I will improve my every day outlook on life! I will be sure to keep you updated on my progress and let you know my final thoughts at the end of the program.

If you feel you need extra help or are feeling stressed or struggling to cope, please look them up! parentalstress.com.au I highly recommend them!

XX Candice XX

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Author: lifeinamumshell

This blog is my life as a mum, the good, the bad, the ugly and everything in between. I share my personal stories and any advice and knowledge I have gained along the way. Enjoy.

6 thoughts on “The Parental Stress Centre”

  1. Oh Threenagers!!!!!! I was half way through reading this post when my very own threenager came in demanding food lol!
    The Mummy guilt gets us all and it is such a relief to connect to other Mums/dads that are in the thick of it too!
    So fantastic that you have found a way to incorporate it into your busy morning and are seeing results already! Looking forward to hearing how you feel in another 17!

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    1. Thank you. Oh my, my son is always hungry… he could eat the entire contents of the cupboard and fridge and still want more food!!
      It really is a relief to have other parents out there that can relate and share their own stories also.
      Thank you for your lovely comment. X

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  2. I am so glad you found the support you needed. Mum guilt is horrible alongside lack of sleep and self doubt can leave even the toughest mums questioning themselves. Strange though that it was through a facebook ad! You were obviously ment to find them!

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